I know eyesight isn’t something that should be taken for granted, but I’m one of those people who secretly has always wanted glasses. When I was younger I actually got jealous of glasses-wearing folk and wanted my own snazzy pair to show off. At university studying for my journalism degree it also crossed my mind that I might look super professional (and give the illusion I had my life together) if I had some. So I’ll admit that when I couldn’t read the tube map across from me a few weeks ago I got a teeeeeny bit excited.
That excitement disappeared as soon as I was told to pick out a pair of glasses that suited me. I really wasn’t expecting to actually need them, but my eye test showed that I’m short-sighted and so I had the task of frantically trying on dozens with no one to give me an opinion. I’m pretty confident in my fashion choices, but this was a completely new experience for me so a friend (or my mum’s) opinion would have been greatly received. The Specsavers staff were great, though, and in the end I opted for these mottled Kylie Minogue ones.
This might sound daft, but I really think the realisation that I need glasses has come at a significant time. I’m choosing (much to the amusement of my friends) to take it as a sign that the next chapter in my life is kicking off – kind of like a gift to welcome me into adulthood (along with way worse hangovers). I only need them for driving and watching TV, so I know I’m probably taking it a bit too literally, but it feels poignant because of the timing after university and among my decisions to get hard to work on my career.
That’s not to say I’m about to grow up and leave all my wild days behind me – I’m a firm believer that you are only as young as you feel, that fun can be weaved into everything. I saw a great Yoko Ono quote the other day – “You can be very wild and still be very wise.”
I’m an incredibly indecisive person, and while I often struggle with how I feel about this, I’ve come to realise it isn’t a bad thing at all. I change my mind every fifteen seconds and I constantly contradict myself. It’s like I sway with the wind – one day I wake up with a particular perspective on a situation and the next I have completely different take. It’s a nightmare for my friends (and even myself) to keep up with, but it allows me to see things from alternative angles and to be completely truthful I think it inspires my spontaneous spirit.
I rarely know exactly what I want. Whether I’m at a restaurant struggling to decide between two meals, or in the process of making a big life choice that could determine the path of my life, I’m constantly haunted by the fear that the other option might be the better one. I spend months mulling over a decision I’ve made, and wondering what if…
While I’d consider myself a very independent person, I often wish someone would just tell me what to do in such situations. But that’s not how life works, and we have to muddle through and listen to our heart and make the best of the options we get hoping we’ve done the right thing (and if it’s at a restaurant, hoping we choose the nicer meal).
I’m enjoying experimenting with new backdrops and props for shoots at the moment, and when my best friend bought this amazing armchair I knew it would make the dreamiest setting to share some close ups of my vintage inspired specs. The change of season has inspired me to go for a shorter hair cut than usual and a colour spruce up always leaves me feeling like I can take on the world.
So, if these glasses have taught me anything, it’s that I can instinctively make a decision when I need to (I’m super happy with the pair I picked) and that whatever is coming up next in life, I’m ready for it.
ph. Megan Dolphin.